Currently Nip/Tuck - The Complete Third Season By Dylan Walsh, Julian McMahon see related

very sad

so this problem of mine is getting worse.

I seriously feel so god damn ugly, it's making me sick.

I don't like looking in the mirror.

I hate that I can't go in public without makeup.

I hate that I don't have long beautiful hair and nice skin.

I lack proportion.

I cannot stand this.

You fall for every word I say.

Currently Your Favorite Weapon By Brand New see related

Friend?

I've been DYING to know...

What is a BEST friend?

...I'd love to meet one, bump into one, go on long jogs in the mornings and pick up coffee.

gett dolled up, night life, share drinks, gossip, small talk, long talk, stumble back to the car together, LAUGH, cheek kiss, call you tomorrow!!

Go to the mall, buy outfitts for the show coming up, boy talk, giggle as the pedicurist scrubs the bottom of our feet.

Adventures, fashion, artwork, food, cocktails, small parties.

someone whom understands me...more than i understand myself.. someone i can trust with my secrets..someone to cheer me up.

I just don't understand.  I see all these people with best friends. I haven't had one for years.

I seriously ENVY all of you people.

cheese?

yes, i'm alive.

and gay..well my boyfriend is.

For some odd reason this occurs in the dream I had last night.

He had sex with Dandre...right in front of me, he seemed to enjoy it..more.

Well honestly I have had a fascination about Dandre and being gay...so this could all be a deep rooted desire of my subconscious...plus I cant deny...Dandre and Lenny are pretty freakin cute...they must be cousins.

IDk about Dandre, but my boyfriend, Leonard Dent, is the cutest of them all.

:] he's all mine... well sorta. don't know what goes on while im working and out with friends.. ya dig?

but anyways, BONJOURNO!

CIAO!!!

I cant be a hypocrite now can I...shakin dah bacon and all...

Currently Marley and Me (Single-Disc Edition) By Jennifer Aniston, Owen Wilson see related

close is not close enough

I started my new job at Victoria's Secret and so far I love it. The people I work with are so nice and down-to-earth. The environment is classy. I love it... and the pay is good too hhaha :]

Lenny has been sleeping over for the past couple nights... my dad is in Florida on some work trip till thursday, so yeah... baby is at work right now but he will be back over around midnight. I miss him already. He scares me sometimes. He's not happy with life at all, I'd love to change that..but i feel hopeless. He says he's only happy when around me, and that's whhy he's always with me.

I don't know whether to believe that or not.

I do know that I'll do whatever I can do to make him love life.

we move in 14 days. SHIT